Today went to Taekwondo as usual. Nothing special, other than some arm combat and self-defense stuff. Grading gonna happen on the 18th of Jan. =\ I still not really sure with my pattern. Hais. Today is also N level students orientation into ITE. In bus saw a lot of gals around my age. I was like today so many kids go Vivo there change bus to Sentosa ah? Ending is they going ITE haha. And as usual, gals all alight @ Clementi.
The one and only thing which made me damn happy is that I've gotten an answer. After Taekwondo, I waited for her to get changed, then walk to bus-stop together. Entertain the others abit first, then chase up to her. She gave me a keychain. Was so sweet of her ^^ She gave me a black one, while she got a pink one herself. Aww. And she was asking whether I know what it mean. I was actually stunned and "Sha" diao for a moment there. And I was like suddenly so happy until dont know what to say. And she say why I no reaction de. Haha. Its not no reaction, its dont know what reaction to express out XD
And so, today is the day. She wanted to grant my wish before 2009. And prove my feeling of things wont go nicely the opposite. She said if I didnt chase her up, she also never give me le. * Thank God that I actually chased up to her. * <3 =)
So just 2 more days, its a brand new year. 2009. The year where economy will be at its WORST. Lmao. My godsis cum cousin is getting married ( Officially Chinese Style ) on the 21st Feb. They are rushing cause her husband, my cousin-in-law is gonna fly to France to work for 5 years. And she's following. =\ So I guess by then they return, they will be like 30+ nearing 40 le. Haha. And their child will be like 3 ~ 5 years old? And born in France somemore. Woo. Haha.
Tomorrow going for Taekwondo ( Hopefully it doesnt rain, if not later my mum tempt me say raining, dont go. ) XD Last week of holiday for us too. School reopening soon on the 5th Jan. 3 weeks of break is just like this, poof, over. And our LAST term for Year 1. Which also means our MOST important term. Final year exams. Score well to get good GPA =\ But I'm stucked. To choose Networking or Programming route. Tons of factor to consider. Like my interest, whether can find work in future anot, my friends and most importantly of all, Her. Hmm. *Headache*
O level results is also releasing soon le. Wei Ze, heh heh. Welcome to our world =P I know I'm evil. But, Muahaha. That's what I am =X
Hmm, and that time after sending massive amount of SMSes to friends families and whoever in my contact list. Iris actually SMS-ed me to chat abit. Haha. She was saying Wah, still remember her ah. -.-" Am I that short term memory until that stage ? >.<
PS. Those who are wondering, NO I'm not with her yet. In case people thought I'm with her le. But chances are very slim la. So I can just dream on =O
Alright so its gonna be a brand new year soon. 2009. And guess what? Bloody hell, I just reformatted my com. >.< No back, no nothing. Now I'm like doing EVERYTHING once again. Damn shit.
But at least, I still remain 1 same thing. That wish and hope that I'm holding on to. ^^
Happy Boxing day to all!
If you dont know what is this day about, its a day where people give presents to those who are less fortunate out there. ^^ Great day to celebrate.
And for xmas? Its the day where Jesus was borned. And Santa Claus is actually somewhat copy version of Saint Nicholas. A guy who secretly put presents and money for others. Great guy indeed.
I may not be a Christian, but to me, everything is worth the learning.
Enjoy!
So today is the Xmas eve. Wishes everyone a EARLY Merry Xmas first ^^
So I'm now all alone at home, thinking and missing her =\
Inside WoW world.
Listening to Emo and Sad Love songs.
Song named Careless Whisper. I kept repeating this songs. Like over 10 times?
Raining heavily outside. Its cold..
9pm soon, Xiao Niang Er coming.
Gonna mass sms everyone a Xmas message. And a special one to her ^^
First time staying at home on the eve of xmas. Or should I say 2nd year. Last year I was scarred by my ex.
Xmas eve night, staying home alone. Though its lonely, at least I have someone in my heart to keep me accompany and warm from this cold night. This year is special.
<3 Her.
Today skipped Taekwondo =X Early in the morning mum ask me heavy rain leh, still wanna go ah? >.< She psycho-ing me not to go. Lol. End up never go.
PS. Yesterday the water bombs, we all kena except Sufy. So ending of the first round, we all threw at him XD. Then left 2 water bombs, I told him why not we play like those gun game, face back to back and count to 10 turn over. I wanna pass him the bomb, he ask me put down on the floor, raise my hands and walk backwards. I was like -.-" You think movie ah, gangster hostage kinda show. End up Michelle backstabbed him, throw at him then I also use mine throw XD Was damn fun la. And thanks to Sandy and Huili, they both thought up a lot of ideas to make this outing fun. ^^ Kudos!
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Kinda happy but yet dont know how to say feeling right now. =\
Since morning around 10am+ she woke up I've msning with her till 6pm+. Just ended not long. She didnt eat her lunch >.< Tell her must take care herself ending still like that. Meh. We chatted a lot. But still, the chances of having a good answer aint that high. I found out that she and I is around the same. Character, favourites and even our past. Hmm.
Yesterday we went to West Coast Park for a mini picnic.
To start thing off, I'm suppose to meet Sufy at my house downstair @ 10.15am end up he 10.55 then reach. Then Sufy told me he took my block lift and feel scared XD Frighten the door wont open. Lmao. Then we rush to Bangkit to buy some Oneh-Oneh and CurryPuff. Sufy brought the bee hoon his mum fried early in the morning. ( Gotta thanks his mum ^^ )
Then we took LRT-MRT to Jurong East to meet them. When we reach there, the gals and Brendon is already there. Then we waited for Gerald. He come le, then he and Brendon accompany him to collect his $50 pay check -.-" So we waited again. When he came back we walked to the bus stop to take 176. Reach there we lay the mats, eat some cakes which Michelle brought one. Then some of us ate the bee hoon. Then Brendon and Gerald go "walk walk" while we played water bomb. Zhong Ji Mi Ma. The one kena everyone can take 1 bomb to bomb that person. And guess what? I'm the first to kena. So I ran around and dodging the water bombs XD Only that Michelle kena me -.- Thats what I remembered it and set her as target XD Next time sure bomb her. =X
It was damn fun la. Enjoy alot. Haven had so much fun since a long time ago. I dont even remember when. Thanks for all the friends accomapany =)
Michelle, SiYing, Sandy, HuiLi, Gerald, Brendon and Sufy.
Photos are all uploaded on Sandy's blog. ^^ I abit lazy upload. And she got the most photos too XD
PS. New song being changed. No longer FairyTales. It is now "Leave the memories alone" Which also simply means, memories are sweet to have. Not to go try to re-get the memories back. Memories will always and ONLY be sweet as a memory itself. So leave it alone ^^
And once again I dreamt about her. The 2nd day. It was sweet. But even in the dream, I know its just merely a dream.
Alright. So today is the day where since long long ago dont know which year, they called it as "Dong Zi"in English is something like Winter thingy. Basically today is the day family all gather together like a reunion, eating steamboat and most important of all, Tang Yuan ^^
Just now just came back from godma house eating steamboat. My god-bro-in-laws all came over as well. So altogether there's 7 + 1 baby so 8 of us.
And thank god, my gastric is SLIGHTLY better now. At least I can eat more and wont be that bloated and wanna vomit. Still will though.
Xmas is also around the corner. 4 more days encounting. I'm sure most of us are anticipating for this day ya? I LOVE the atmosphere. The feeling of a mysterious and maybe lonely xmas is always so sweet and nice. ^^ Call me weird if you want. But xmas to me lonely is the feeling of nice XD This year dont think I will set up my Xmas tree. Cant manage to buy the lightings =\ Noone seem to sell them this year. Sad case.
Tomorrow 8 of us from IT1B gonna go for a mini outing cum picnic. Me, Sufy, Gerald, Brendon, Sandy, Michelle, SiYing, Weely. Guess its gonna be fun? Part of this outing is they planned for me and ahem. Lol. Hope all the things goes well =)
CHEERS! ^^
Okay. My gastric problem I doubt will be cured. Doctor said the scan and scope shows nothing abnormal. Gave me 2 medicine. Ate le. Doesnt feel much different. Maybe its just 1 day, so doesn't take full effect yet. This is what I hope for. Really.
The only thing which can take my mind off thinking this is talking to her. Her care and concern towards me actually makes me forget that I'm having this gastric problem. There's no suffering during that short yet sweet period of time. She wont be reading this blog. So she wont know at all how much I appreciate her concern. And if she really accept me, I will be like damn happy man. But I doubt this will ever happen. So there's only 1 thing left for me. Eternal suffering.
Okay. So today early in the morning around 7am I woke up. Bathe, and went out. Took taxi to Mount Elizabeth hospital along with my dad and mum. Waited quite some time, since appointment suppose to be @ 9am. But we reached at 8am -.-" 1 hour early. Then doc came, went in do a Ultra-Sonic scan. Doc says everything alright. Then he say best is do a Scope to scan my gastric. So went to the scope area. Register. And lie on bed, kena push into a room. Kinda creepy XD And I still have to change into hospital gear. Exactly as if I'm kena admitted to hospital. Then soon later, doc came. Insert some medicine into my blood. ( There's a needle through my blood vessels all the time. ) So he can just open the tube like thingy, and pour the medicine in. And soon later, I was black out. Dont know what happaned. When I woke up, I'm in the hospital ward. Think I was the fastest to wake up from the medicine XD Others still snoring away. Then ate some biscuit and drank milo and I'm discharged. Took medicine and stuff. Doc said nothing's wrong with me. Might be stress. -.-" I was like o.O I stress over what sia. Maybe studies? And her? Guess so. Without knowing it. Meh.
After that, went to plaza to eat with parents. Wanted to buy my xmas tree lights. But they only got 100 bulbs one. I think mine need around 200. =\ Sad ah. But still, I bought a new pair of slippers ^^
So everything's alright. And hopefully my gastric will be good once again. ^^
First thing when I woke up from the sleep all I thought was of her.
Last thing came to my mind before I knocked out was also her.
=)
Bah. Today went back for Taekwondo. Halfway, I nearly fainted. They also said my face is like very pale. Yeah, I was kinda gonna faint at that moment. Thanks for caring anyway ^^ Luckily didnt faint. =\ Im getting weak. Meh.
Tomorrow I shall go screen my gastric. And HOPEFULLY everything shall be cured ONCE AND FOR ALL FOREVER! Muahaha. The one of the 2 things I care and worry now. =\ The another one is pretty obvious eh? Dont have to say it out. ^^
Alright, went down doc today. Doc went on holiday -.-" Bloody hell made me waste my time go down. But oh well, prayed at the temple. At least not wasted.
Went home called the specialist whom is intro-ed by my god-dad and cousin one. Guess what? He went on holiday as well! Bloody hell x2.
Called the another specialist, my dad went to him before. And lucky he's in SG. Set appointment on Thursday morning 9am. Was asked not to eat after 10pm the day before. Gonna go see doc, and if needed, scanning. =\ Tube going down the throat. Eew.
*So as I pray, all things goes well. My health and between me and her. -Unlimited Bladeworks!- *
PS. Ignore my crap at the end. Its a phrase used by Archer in the Anime Fate/Stay night. Only the middle part of the phrase is what I wanted to say XD
Alright. These few days, just started holiday. Hmm. Been playing WoW. Today our guild just got disbanded. And just reformed a new one. Lol. And me and Roy turned into Officers. Still got MVB homework to do. Meh. 2 somemore. 1 assignment and 1 is project. More coding to do >.< *Stress*
Alright, so tomorrow I'm going to see doc ONCE AGAIN. Lmao. Gastric problem persist. So this time round, go my family doc, get a referral to see specialist. Gonna so screen gastric I think. Image the tube going into the throat and to gastric >.< *brr* Gonna be like damn pain? But strange, I dont feel that afraid compare to that time while thinking about it. Guess maybe I'm sick of this sickness already. That the hatred overcover the fear. Heh.
* I only want that certain someone care and concern. Doubt she will understand. Though we aint together, I hope we are. I can sense your coldness towards me these days. Dont know what happened to you. >.< *
Okay. Some minor updates here and there.
These 3 days been busy with Class Tests and stuff. >.< 4 papers.
Tues, Online Cisco - It was pretty much a cheat and copy test. So XD
Tues, Theory Networking - GG, Definitely fail. *RIP* Cher already said no one pass XD
Wed, Practical Networking - Somehow okay. Know how to make LAN wire. Abit of copy here and there. But at least can score @ Pratical stuff, and fail @ those questions XD
Thurs, C-Math - 50-50 is all I can say. Not much confidence. Though I studied abit. But somehow I forgot and unsure of some stuff during Test. First to complete. As usual XD Since I forever see question then write. Dont bother to think indepth XD
And for the another part, hmmm. I asked her face to face today. Answer is actually no answer XD Cause we hardly communicate. Even if together also like not together. So we agree to communicate more first ^^ Now at least I broke down a barrier. Easier le hehe. And hopefully all thing leads well and 1 day, I will be with her =)
Slightly more detailed is that, she told me that she didnt totally reject me, and need time to talk more first, to like break the ice. And she will be giving an answer after holidays bah. She also said, she also wanna give herself a chance. Dont really know what this means, but more or less she have a bit of feeling bah I guess. So yeah, so far all is around the same, except that I told her my feelings and she told me hers. ^^
* Happy Holidays to all ITE and Poly students! *
PS. And she asked me along for a mini-picnic outing somewhere 20th+ Dec @ West Coast Park. ^^
Alright. We had our Class Test today. For Networking. And it was a DISASTER! Lmao. Online Cisco one ALL copied. Except for the 3 gals I think. They good gals heh. Then next is Theory. All gg la. Even "her" also cannot make it. She told me its a GG paper, and nearly tore the paper into 2 lol. Violent seh.
Tomorrow = Practical. Gonna mess around with the Packet Tracer. He he he *Evil smirk*
As regards to my ANOTHER situation that I'm in. I'm gonna try asking her face 2 face tomorrow. Thats what she hinted me to do. And I'm gonna try it =) Hopefully it turns out well. And PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me have the chance to even said so =\
Happy Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims out there!
*Meh* Mass slaughter today. *prays for those animals.*
I guess she is slowly accepting me ^^ Just 1 more step I guess.
*Edit* On 2nd thought. I guess not. I'm just too simple-minded. =\
Finger crossed. As I prayed. Hoping for it to be the dream which I dreamt of. So sweet and nice. Though being pessimistic, I still hold that tiny bit of hope, that tiny bit of miracle, that tiny bit of believe I still have in Fairytales. She's giving me hope, be it real or just a normal friend view, its enough for me to cling on to it and progress.
Okay, enough of all those XD Anyhow type type out whatever came into my mind. Just extract it randomly. =X Wanted to make it sounds nice. But hmm, sounds weird eh? Opps.
So these few days had been smsing her. Kinda hinted her. And guess she kinda know it too. Stating some stuff cant be just said through sms. Yeah I know. Thus I will say it face to face =) I'm not sure whether I'm that strong enough to say it out. But I do hope I will have the courage. *Grants me the power. That feeling I had for you and the hope you gave me.*
It just seems so "dreamy" or in other words "Meng Huan". Dont know how this will go, dont know what the result will be. But I just hope this is all not a dream but the actual fact. Then I can tell you, I can fly to the moon le XD
The time when I closed my eyes.
The only thing I always will see is your sweet look.
The only thing I always will hear is your voice.
You had me so mesmerize.
I'm so in love with you. ^^
Thanks for caring for me that much. Greatly appreciated =)
Okay, after yesterday incident. I seriously dont know what to think. Cause though I do seriously am fond of her, but its like superb 1 sided. She dont know about it. And I'm trying my very best to communicate more with her. I'm serious about this. She's aint really those hardcore internet person, so MSN will be kinda hard. So only get to SMS. In class, I tried to go near, but there's always a force pulling me away. *Hates it* I wanna communicate more! Argh. There's some people helping me though. And I'm really grateful of them. I managed to get her blog and MSN just now. Which is a big thing for me ^^ Though might sounds a minor case to others, but to me, its a big one. And I'm already happy enough. Just hope she dont find me irritating of SMS-ing her. *prays*
The thing which keeps pondering me is, who is the one who told them that I liked her? I seriously had no idea. And they kept dont wanna tell me who that person is. Saying he/she will kill them. And they even said not to expose them since they are helping me now. At first I was thinking that she might know about this, but now, I doubt so. She's treating me more like a friend I guess. I can somewhat sense it. Though I hope this time round, my senses are wrong. =\
Wooing someone aint easy, so those who are already a couple should cherish it. Secure it tightly, and never let go of its grasp. ^^ For now, I will do whatever I can to achieve an answer. Though I guess more or less its a negative one. *Trying real hard to be optismistic.*
Roy was asking me, will I accept her? I was like duh? I liked her all along. Just that I decided to keep it in the dark. But now, its exposed out. How? When? Who? I dont know. I wanna know as well. Hais. Its killing me man the thoughts of this.
Alright. So today is the brand new week. Monday. 8th week of our 1st term, 2nd semester of ITE life in year 1. As usual. Today never learn anything. Went school to transfer Suf and Roy Yugioh 3, then slack around reading forums of WoW. Then do the online test of CCNA aka Cisco. *Copy paste answer from google*
The thing is that, after lesson. While we were at the locker, putting our books. Wee Li outta no where ask me go 1 corner. Then she asked the question which actually stunned and shocked me. "Do I like that someone?" I was like huh? How the heck she knows about it. And who told her bla bla bla. Alot of things went through my mind. To be frank, I kinda like that someone since the 1st few days of school. She's interesting and always fun to be around with. Fun and seriousness perfect combination. Then I keep asking Wee Li how she knows, she keep dont wanna say. Ending only told me this, Obvious and Rumours. I was like o.O
Roy was saying maybe "Someone" liked me, and ask Wee Li to hint or something. But in my heart I know, Its impossible. I hardly talk to her. I did not show out any signs of liking her. So its like sooooo random man. Lets hope all goes well though. *Cross fingers*
Kelvin aka Shao
GPA 3.5 above
[[ The Wives ]]
kairi [kingdom hearts]
[[ The Mage Power ]]
Roy Kelvin Sufyan
[[ The Related ]]
bryan [kor]
[[ The Memories ]]
January 2005
[[ The Clock ]]
18+
1.75m / 55kg
ITE West Dover : Info Tech
<3 NEKO!
<3 <3 <3 SHANA!!!
<3 Strawberry ^^
<3 Bitter Choco =)
<3 Mint~
<3 Sad and Emo Songs [Classical / Oldies]
WoW ShadowSong : NekoShana
PSP : Metallic Blue
NDS : Metallic Pink
[[ The Wishlist ]]
To find a gal I truly love <3
To be with the gal I love
Success in everything
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Able to master WoW Mage class ^^
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millia rage [guilty gear]
primula [shuffle!]
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natsuki [mai-hime]
shana [shakugan no shana]
fate testarossa [magical girl lyrical nanoha]
toda erika / misa [deathnote]
kari [digimon]
shiki [the world ends with you]
HER!
amanda [jie]
wenhui [jie]
daphne [jie]
edelyn [jie]
shuna [mei]
wanxin [mei]
xiuwen [mei]
xianzhen [mei]
xinyu [mei]
peixuan [mei]
kaichi [mei]
meilian [mei]
huili [mei]
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mr eddy
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Today went to Taekwondo as usual. Nothing special, other than some arm combat and self-defense stuff. Grading gonna happen on the 18th of Jan. =\ I still not really sure with my pattern. Hais. Today is also N level students orientation into ITE. In bus saw a lot of gals around my age. I was like today so many kids go Vivo there change bus to Sentosa ah? Ending is they going ITE haha. And as usual, gals all alight @ Clementi.
The one and only thing which made me damn happy is that I've gotten an answer. After Taekwondo, I waited for her to get changed, then walk to bus-stop together. Entertain the others abit first, then chase up to her. She gave me a keychain. Was so sweet of her ^^ She gave me a black one, while she got a pink one herself. Aww. And she was asking whether I know what it mean. I was actually stunned and "Sha" diao for a moment there. And I was like suddenly so happy until dont know what to say. And she say why I no reaction de. Haha. Its not no reaction, its dont know what reaction to express out XD
And so, today is the day. She wanted to grant my wish before 2009. And prove my feeling of things wont go nicely the opposite. She said if I didnt chase her up, she also never give me le. * Thank God that I actually chased up to her. * <3 =)
So just 2 more days, its a brand new year. 2009. The year where economy will be at its WORST. Lmao. My godsis cum cousin is getting married ( Officially Chinese Style ) on the 21st Feb. They are rushing cause her husband, my cousin-in-law is gonna fly to France to work for 5 years. And she's following. =\ So I guess by then they return, they will be like 30+ nearing 40 le. Haha. And their child will be like 3 ~ 5 years old? And born in France somemore. Woo. Haha.
Tomorrow going for Taekwondo ( Hopefully it doesnt rain, if not later my mum tempt me say raining, dont go. ) XD Last week of holiday for us too. School reopening soon on the 5th Jan. 3 weeks of break is just like this, poof, over. And our LAST term for Year 1. Which also means our MOST important term. Final year exams. Score well to get good GPA =\ But I'm stucked. To choose Networking or Programming route. Tons of factor to consider. Like my interest, whether can find work in future anot, my friends and most importantly of all, Her. Hmm. *Headache*
O level results is also releasing soon le. Wei Ze, heh heh. Welcome to our world =P I know I'm evil. But, Muahaha. That's what I am =X
Hmm, and that time after sending massive amount of SMSes to friends families and whoever in my contact list. Iris actually SMS-ed me to chat abit. Haha. She was saying Wah, still remember her ah. -.-" Am I that short term memory until that stage ? >.<
PS. Those who are wondering, NO I'm not with her yet. In case people thought I'm with her le. But chances are very slim la. So I can just dream on =O
Alright so its gonna be a brand new year soon. 2009. And guess what? Bloody hell, I just reformatted my com. >.< No back, no nothing. Now I'm like doing EVERYTHING once again. Damn shit.
But at least, I still remain 1 same thing. That wish and hope that I'm holding on to. ^^
Happy Boxing day to all!
If you dont know what is this day about, its a day where people give presents to those who are less fortunate out there. ^^ Great day to celebrate.
And for xmas? Its the day where Jesus was borned. And Santa Claus is actually somewhat copy version of Saint Nicholas. A guy who secretly put presents and money for others. Great guy indeed.
I may not be a Christian, but to me, everything is worth the learning.
Enjoy!
So today is the Xmas eve. Wishes everyone a EARLY Merry Xmas first ^^
So I'm now all alone at home, thinking and missing her =\
Inside WoW world.
Listening to Emo and Sad Love songs.
Song named Careless Whisper. I kept repeating this songs. Like over 10 times?
Raining heavily outside. Its cold..
9pm soon, Xiao Niang Er coming.
Gonna mass sms everyone a Xmas message. And a special one to her ^^
First time staying at home on the eve of xmas. Or should I say 2nd year. Last year I was scarred by my ex.
Xmas eve night, staying home alone. Though its lonely, at least I have someone in my heart to keep me accompany and warm from this cold night. This year is special.
<3 Her.
Today skipped Taekwondo =X Early in the morning mum ask me heavy rain leh, still wanna go ah? >.< She psycho-ing me not to go. Lol. End up never go.
PS. Yesterday the water bombs, we all kena except Sufy. So ending of the first round, we all threw at him XD. Then left 2 water bombs, I told him why not we play like those gun game, face back to back and count to 10 turn over. I wanna pass him the bomb, he ask me put down on the floor, raise my hands and walk backwards. I was like -.-" You think movie ah, gangster hostage kinda show. End up Michelle backstabbed him, throw at him then I also use mine throw XD Was damn fun la. And thanks to Sandy and Huili, they both thought up a lot of ideas to make this outing fun. ^^ Kudos!
Here are the photos of yesterday. Taken from Sandy's blog. Hehe. * Lazy to upload ah. + She got more also XD *
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Kinda happy but yet dont know how to say feeling right now. =\
Since morning around 10am+ she woke up I've msning with her till 6pm+. Just ended not long. She didnt eat her lunch >.< Tell her must take care herself ending still like that. Meh. We chatted a lot. But still, the chances of having a good answer aint that high. I found out that she and I is around the same. Character, favourites and even our past. Hmm.
Yesterday we went to West Coast Park for a mini picnic.
To start thing off, I'm suppose to meet Sufy at my house downstair @ 10.15am end up he 10.55 then reach. Then Sufy told me he took my block lift and feel scared XD Frighten the door wont open. Lmao. Then we rush to Bangkit to buy some Oneh-Oneh and CurryPuff. Sufy brought the bee hoon his mum fried early in the morning. ( Gotta thanks his mum ^^ )
Then we took LRT-MRT to Jurong East to meet them. When we reach there, the gals and Brendon is already there. Then we waited for Gerald. He come le, then he and Brendon accompany him to collect his $50 pay check -.-" So we waited again. When he came back we walked to the bus stop to take 176. Reach there we lay the mats, eat some cakes which Michelle brought one. Then some of us ate the bee hoon. Then Brendon and Gerald go "walk walk" while we played water bomb. Zhong Ji Mi Ma. The one kena everyone can take 1 bomb to bomb that person. And guess what? I'm the first to kena. So I ran around and dodging the water bombs XD Only that Michelle kena me -.- Thats what I remembered it and set her as target XD Next time sure bomb her. =X
It was damn fun la. Enjoy alot. Haven had so much fun since a long time ago. I dont even remember when. Thanks for all the friends accomapany =)
Michelle, SiYing, Sandy, HuiLi, Gerald, Brendon and Sufy.
Photos are all uploaded on Sandy's blog. ^^ I abit lazy upload. And she got the most photos too XD
PS. New song being changed. No longer FairyTales. It is now "Leave the memories alone" Which also simply means, memories are sweet to have. Not to go try to re-get the memories back. Memories will always and ONLY be sweet as a memory itself. So leave it alone ^^
And once again I dreamt about her. The 2nd day. It was sweet. But even in the dream, I know its just merely a dream.
Alright. So today is the day where since long long ago dont know which year, they called it as "Dong Zi"in English is something like Winter thingy. Basically today is the day family all gather together like a reunion, eating steamboat and most important of all, Tang Yuan ^^
Just now just came back from godma house eating steamboat. My god-bro-in-laws all came over as well. So altogether there's 7 + 1 baby so 8 of us.
And thank god, my gastric is SLIGHTLY better now. At least I can eat more and wont be that bloated and wanna vomit. Still will though.
Xmas is also around the corner. 4 more days encounting. I'm sure most of us are anticipating for this day ya? I LOVE the atmosphere. The feeling of a mysterious and maybe lonely xmas is always so sweet and nice. ^^ Call me weird if you want. But xmas to me lonely is the feeling of nice XD This year dont think I will set up my Xmas tree. Cant manage to buy the lightings =\ Noone seem to sell them this year. Sad case.
Tomorrow 8 of us from IT1B gonna go for a mini outing cum picnic. Me, Sufy, Gerald, Brendon, Sandy, Michelle, SiYing, Weely. Guess its gonna be fun? Part of this outing is they planned for me and ahem. Lol. Hope all the things goes well =)
CHEERS! ^^
Okay. My gastric problem I doubt will be cured. Doctor said the scan and scope shows nothing abnormal. Gave me 2 medicine. Ate le. Doesnt feel much different. Maybe its just 1 day, so doesn't take full effect yet. This is what I hope for. Really.
The only thing which can take my mind off thinking this is talking to her. Her care and concern towards me actually makes me forget that I'm having this gastric problem. There's no suffering during that short yet sweet period of time. She wont be reading this blog. So she wont know at all how much I appreciate her concern. And if she really accept me, I will be like damn happy man. But I doubt this will ever happen. So there's only 1 thing left for me. Eternal suffering.
Okay. So today early in the morning around 7am I woke up. Bathe, and went out. Took taxi to Mount Elizabeth hospital along with my dad and mum. Waited quite some time, since appointment suppose to be @ 9am. But we reached at 8am -.-" 1 hour early. Then doc came, went in do a Ultra-Sonic scan. Doc says everything alright. Then he say best is do a Scope to scan my gastric. So went to the scope area. Register. And lie on bed, kena push into a room. Kinda creepy XD And I still have to change into hospital gear. Exactly as if I'm kena admitted to hospital. Then soon later, doc came. Insert some medicine into my blood. ( There's a needle through my blood vessels all the time. ) So he can just open the tube like thingy, and pour the medicine in. And soon later, I was black out. Dont know what happaned. When I woke up, I'm in the hospital ward. Think I was the fastest to wake up from the medicine XD Others still snoring away. Then ate some biscuit and drank milo and I'm discharged. Took medicine and stuff. Doc said nothing's wrong with me. Might be stress. -.-" I was like o.O I stress over what sia. Maybe studies? And her? Guess so. Without knowing it. Meh.
After that, went to plaza to eat with parents. Wanted to buy my xmas tree lights. But they only got 100 bulbs one. I think mine need around 200. =\ Sad ah. But still, I bought a new pair of slippers ^^
So everything's alright. And hopefully my gastric will be good once again. ^^
First thing when I woke up from the sleep all I thought was of her.
Last thing came to my mind before I knocked out was also her.
=)
Bah. Today went back for Taekwondo. Halfway, I nearly fainted. They also said my face is like very pale. Yeah, I was kinda gonna faint at that moment. Thanks for caring anyway ^^ Luckily didnt faint. =\ Im getting weak. Meh.
Tomorrow I shall go screen my gastric. And HOPEFULLY everything shall be cured ONCE AND FOR ALL FOREVER! Muahaha. The one of the 2 things I care and worry now. =\ The another one is pretty obvious eh? Dont have to say it out. ^^
Alright, went down doc today. Doc went on holiday -.-" Bloody hell made me waste my time go down. But oh well, prayed at the temple. At least not wasted.
Went home called the specialist whom is intro-ed by my god-dad and cousin one. Guess what? He went on holiday as well! Bloody hell x2.
Called the another specialist, my dad went to him before. And lucky he's in SG. Set appointment on Thursday morning 9am. Was asked not to eat after 10pm the day before. Gonna go see doc, and if needed, scanning. =\ Tube going down the throat. Eew.
*So as I pray, all things goes well. My health and between me and her. -Unlimited Bladeworks!- *
PS. Ignore my crap at the end. Its a phrase used by Archer in the Anime Fate/Stay night. Only the middle part of the phrase is what I wanted to say XD
Alright. These few days, just started holiday. Hmm. Been playing WoW. Today our guild just got disbanded. And just reformed a new one. Lol. And me and Roy turned into Officers. Still got MVB homework to do. Meh. 2 somemore. 1 assignment and 1 is project. More coding to do >.< *Stress*
Alright, so tomorrow I'm going to see doc ONCE AGAIN. Lmao. Gastric problem persist. So this time round, go my family doc, get a referral to see specialist. Gonna so screen gastric I think. Image the tube going into the throat and to gastric >.< *brr* Gonna be like damn pain? But strange, I dont feel that afraid compare to that time while thinking about it. Guess maybe I'm sick of this sickness already. That the hatred overcover the fear. Heh.
* I only want that certain someone care and concern. Doubt she will understand. Though we aint together, I hope we are. I can sense your coldness towards me these days. Dont know what happened to you. >.< *
Okay. Some minor updates here and there.
These 3 days been busy with Class Tests and stuff. >.< 4 papers.
Tues, Online Cisco - It was pretty much a cheat and copy test. So XD
Tues, Theory Networking - GG, Definitely fail. *RIP* Cher already said no one pass XD
Wed, Practical Networking - Somehow okay. Know how to make LAN wire. Abit of copy here and there. But at least can score @ Pratical stuff, and fail @ those questions XD
Thurs, C-Math - 50-50 is all I can say. Not much confidence. Though I studied abit. But somehow I forgot and unsure of some stuff during Test. First to complete. As usual XD Since I forever see question then write. Dont bother to think indepth XD
And for the another part, hmmm. I asked her face to face today. Answer is actually no answer XD Cause we hardly communicate. Even if together also like not together. So we agree to communicate more first ^^ Now at least I broke down a barrier. Easier le hehe. And hopefully all thing leads well and 1 day, I will be with her =)
Slightly more detailed is that, she told me that she didnt totally reject me, and need time to talk more first, to like break the ice. And she will be giving an answer after holidays bah. She also said, she also wanna give herself a chance. Dont really know what this means, but more or less she have a bit of feeling bah I guess. So yeah, so far all is around the same, except that I told her my feelings and she told me hers. ^^
* Happy Holidays to all ITE and Poly students! *
PS. And she asked me along for a mini-picnic outing somewhere 20th+ Dec @ West Coast Park. ^^
Alright. We had our Class Test today. For Networking. And it was a DISASTER! Lmao. Online Cisco one ALL copied. Except for the 3 gals I think. They good gals heh. Then next is Theory. All gg la. Even "her" also cannot make it. She told me its a GG paper, and nearly tore the paper into 2 lol. Violent seh.
Tomorrow = Practical. Gonna mess around with the Packet Tracer. He he he *Evil smirk*
As regards to my ANOTHER situation that I'm in. I'm gonna try asking her face 2 face tomorrow. Thats what she hinted me to do. And I'm gonna try it =) Hopefully it turns out well. And PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me have the chance to even said so =\
Happy Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims out there!
*Meh* Mass slaughter today. *prays for those animals.*
I guess she is slowly accepting me ^^ Just 1 more step I guess.
*Edit* On 2nd thought. I guess not. I'm just too simple-minded. =\
Finger crossed. As I prayed. Hoping for it to be the dream which I dreamt of. So sweet and nice. Though being pessimistic, I still hold that tiny bit of hope, that tiny bit of miracle, that tiny bit of believe I still have in Fairytales. She's giving me hope, be it real or just a normal friend view, its enough for me to cling on to it and progress.
Okay, enough of all those XD Anyhow type type out whatever came into my mind. Just extract it randomly. =X Wanted to make it sounds nice. But hmm, sounds weird eh? Opps.
So these few days had been smsing her. Kinda hinted her. And guess she kinda know it too. Stating some stuff cant be just said through sms. Yeah I know. Thus I will say it face to face =) I'm not sure whether I'm that strong enough to say it out. But I do hope I will have the courage. *Grants me the power. That feeling I had for you and the hope you gave me.*
It just seems so "dreamy" or in other words "Meng Huan". Dont know how this will go, dont know what the result will be. But I just hope this is all not a dream but the actual fact. Then I can tell you, I can fly to the moon le XD
The time when I closed my eyes.
The only thing I always will see is your sweet look.
The only thing I always will hear is your voice.
You had me so mesmerize.
I'm so in love with you. ^^
Thanks for caring for me that much. Greatly appreciated =)
Okay, after yesterday incident. I seriously dont know what to think. Cause though I do seriously am fond of her, but its like superb 1 sided. She dont know about it. And I'm trying my very best to communicate more with her. I'm serious about this. She's aint really those hardcore internet person, so MSN will be kinda hard. So only get to SMS. In class, I tried to go near, but there's always a force pulling me away. *Hates it* I wanna communicate more! Argh. There's some people helping me though. And I'm really grateful of them. I managed to get her blog and MSN just now. Which is a big thing for me ^^ Though might sounds a minor case to others, but to me, its a big one. And I'm already happy enough. Just hope she dont find me irritating of SMS-ing her. *prays*
The thing which keeps pondering me is, who is the one who told them that I liked her? I seriously had no idea. And they kept dont wanna tell me who that person is. Saying he/she will kill them. And they even said not to expose them since they are helping me now. At first I was thinking that she might know about this, but now, I doubt so. She's treating me more like a friend I guess. I can somewhat sense it. Though I hope this time round, my senses are wrong. =\
Wooing someone aint easy, so those who are already a couple should cherish it. Secure it tightly, and never let go of its grasp. ^^ For now, I will do whatever I can to achieve an answer. Though I guess more or less its a negative one. *Trying real hard to be optismistic.*
Roy was asking me, will I accept her? I was like duh? I liked her all along. Just that I decided to keep it in the dark. But now, its exposed out. How? When? Who? I dont know. I wanna know as well. Hais. Its killing me man the thoughts of this.
Alright. So today is the brand new week. Monday. 8th week of our 1st term, 2nd semester of ITE life in year 1. As usual. Today never learn anything. Went school to transfer Suf and Roy Yugioh 3, then slack around reading forums of WoW. Then do the online test of CCNA aka Cisco. *Copy paste answer from google*
The thing is that, after lesson. While we were at the locker, putting our books. Wee Li outta no where ask me go 1 corner. Then she asked the question which actually stunned and shocked me. "Do I like that someone?" I was like huh? How the heck she knows about it. And who told her bla bla bla. Alot of things went through my mind. To be frank, I kinda like that someone since the 1st few days of school. She's interesting and always fun to be around with. Fun and seriousness perfect combination. Then I keep asking Wee Li how she knows, she keep dont wanna say. Ending only told me this, Obvious and Rumours. I was like o.O
Roy was saying maybe "Someone" liked me, and ask Wee Li to hint or something. But in my heart I know, Its impossible. I hardly talk to her. I did not show out any signs of liking her. So its like sooooo random man. Lets hope all goes well though. *Cross fingers*