Currently. My mind is filled with 1 thought. Ina cold cold snowing country, at night. Sitting near a firepit, sipping on hot choco. Omg. Thats relaxing man! Perfect leisure for me. I love the night, moon, stars and best of all SNOW! <3 this man. Wonder will it even happen for me. Hmm. =) Anyway, SG today @ my place is kinda cooling. Been raining for quite some time. And its cool~ =) Sitting infront of my com, reading forum the ENTIRE day. Yeah! And playing abit of PSP. Trying to farm Rubbery Hide for my Kirin set. =\ Meh. And now waiting for my CS meeting to start. Gal MSN me, asking who's that she is. And she said someone told her to read my blog. Heh, though im curious to find out who that person is, I wont force her on saying out. Not bad, someone actually still view my blog XD Dont know who. Secret viewer seh. LOL. Dont get me wrong. Im not saying that person is interested in my blog or what. Just woah, someone IS reading it afterall. Anyway, whoever you are, thanks for reading. And might I say, caring too? =)
So today I got no lesson as usual. Just doing some plain slacking @ home. PSPing too. Listening to Fish Leong songs for the past 1 hour, her songs are nice =) Soothing. + in this kinda weather. Its perfect! Gonna eat my sweet potatoes soon. Mum cooked them. Cold weather, piping hot sweet potatoes. Woot. Another "Xiang Shou" man! And for those who care about me. Thanks lots! I've step outta the hole already. And moving on steadily. =)
And a minor update yesterday. Went for our Video taking. We taking the story of the first founder of Singapura. Not sure the full name, but its Donno what Utama or something. We seriously made it into a comedy historic video. LMAO. Its damn funny im telling ya. If got chance, I will upload to Youtube for viewing. Now we left for editing part. We spent the entire morning AND afternoon yesterday to clear the video. Its ONLY a 4 mins video. But the time we took to film it, its like 4 HOURs and more. Really. What they said. " Tai Shang Si Fen Zong, Tai Xia Shi Nian Gong ". Or translate to, 4 mins on stage, but its 4 years of work backstage. Hope we can score well for this video, and best of all. Win the competition and win that 3k$ =)
And dont you think its contradicting? First saying you dont wanna get into relationship anymore. And the next moment you're looking for someone to love you. Yeah friends love I can understand. But you specify a certain HE. This pisses me off. This is like the second time you used the same reason towards me. And the first time, it ends up with you being with another guy soon after you said that reason to me. This time round Im sure it will leads to the same ending. Simply said, you're attention seeking. And wants ton of guys falling in love with you. But you just simply plays around as if its a game. In the past before I know you, you might be like this. But during the life span of us being together, I can feel that you changed. And now, you're back to the same old person whom I dont know. Indeed, you have changed. In the past, for me, you're really a sweet gal. And thus, fallen for you. But now, the feeling is fading off. Till the extend I dont feel anything for you anymore. And thanks for that. I appreciate it. Finally im outta this.
Sicne you're blog, friendster. Ton of GUYS are stating if noone love you, they will. Yeah. Typical answer from any guys out there. Using the same quote towards gals. I've seen too much of these already. 80% of them are basically lying. Thinking by saying those, gals who are down or sad will accept them. Heh. But 1 thing I can swear to you, Im the 20% when I said those to you in the past. Every word of it, I meant it thoroughly. Still, the memory of us being together are sweet, and I thanks you for that. The memories which will be left in me of you, would be the sweet side of you. Lets just move on from this and get a better future.
For you now, I guess it will be pretty easy to get another stead. For me, I gotta calm myself down enough first. Before even thinking of that. Cheers.
Dont know what to put as the title. So leave it there.
Some people might be wandering. Why yesterday after the clean break. Im happy instead of sad? Here its why. @ her blog. She stated she wanted "HE" to love her more and bla bla bla. And the HE she said was her "FRIEND". Yeah sure. 1 day before she was saying she cant decide whether to be with me or not. Stating she still have feeling. And she doesn't want to reject. And the next day? She seeking love from another guy. Yeah. Seriously saying. This IS FLIRT. Seriously. Its more of hatred now then love or sadness. Ever heard before, that when you love someone damn lot, you will tend to hate that person damn lot when something goes wrong. Yeah here it is. A VERY good example. So now, she say she doesnt wanna get into a relationship, and there she's seeking love from a guy. Woah. Nice one man. NICE logic and excuse. Now i dont give a damn who she likes or with. We are THOROUGHLY over. I wish her all the best. Be it good or bad. I would care less. So should I say, dont bother anymore. Let "HIM" love her in whatever way she wants. I didnt want to think this way, but seriously. Her action really proves to me one thing, she love attention from guys, and definitely. Partly a flirt. She didnt know this herself. But people out there as third party can see it.
So now, Im 100% FREE. Free from the hole. Im outta it. FULLY outta it. So now, I can find my very own happiness. Someone who treats love a matter. And not a game. Now, I just dont wanna hear anything from her anymore. Its not avoiding, mind you. In the past, I admit. She makes me miss her. But now, hate her.
2 letters. GG.
Its over. Finally.
Yeah its over. Gotta say, I felt free rather than sad. Think I just bottle it up too much. And finally, its released. This time round, I made it a clean one. =) Cheers.
I know im kinda annoying at times. But I seriously do care about others. Infact, to say the truth. Only those people whom I treated as CLOSE friends, I will be sarcastic towards. I dont know why. Its kind of my way of acting. While strangers, I will be VERY polite. Guess Im born this way to treat people this way. So friends out there, hope you guys understand. Not I wanna be rude or sarcastic to you. But its kinda of my style. Just trust me. Whenever Im like this with you, you are indeed a true close friend of mine that I treated. Dont take it too hard. =)
HBSo she decided to drop me a SMS just now. She stated to read her blog. And I did what she told. Read her blog, read her tagboard. And seriously, by reading that. Isnt it as good as telling me, dont know. I dont know why you chose to keep not deciding on an answer. Is it that hard? If you like and trust that someone, accept. If there's no longer any feelings left, reject. Let that person go. I dont like caging people up. Its like, if I dont like her anymore, I wont bother about her anymore. Let her free, let her find her own future. And not giving a "Dont know" answer. Its like you wanna reject, but just maybe like the feeling of being loved by someone so deeply. So you chose to say dont know. I know not everyone is this way. Some are just she bu de. But seriously saying la. She bu de, keep saying dont know. Does it lead to anything? The answer is NO. It will keep revolve around dont know. Ending what we have got? A dont know still. Its like going back to the start point. Deep down my heart, Im hoping for a acceptance. But I know. The dont know you're saying. Its already a NO. Not that you cant decide. Its just that you cant let it go. So I hereby will appreciate if you can decide on an answer after so long. Its been more than 3 months. Im asking and asking. Waiting and waiting. And I've been keep receiving a dont know. Im already really tired of that answer le. I want a definite answer. But you today SMS me. Telling me you aint lying. Relighting the fire within me. But ending, still gave me a dont know answer. Im really really very tired le. So, I will only say these few stuff. Decision is up to yours. Whatever it is, I just hope you give a definite answer. I know by this thing goes, the answer is definitely a No. But oh well. Getting an answer is better than not getting 1.
Do you still even have feeling in me? Have the faith and trust a couples should have? If the answer is yes, then accept. Dont bother go think about other stuff le. When together things will slowly gets better. Now whatever you think. You cant foresee the future of whats gonna happen. If the answer is No, just reject. And we both WILL move on individually. No more cross-roads between us. Since you can move on and stead with others so easily. I guess this will be the best option for you ya? This phrase is what I seriously wanted to say when I heard you got stead the other time. Its like you can forget about our memories and move on SO EASILY. Was kinda pissed off indeed. Maybe I just love you too deeply. And you did not. Thus the difference.
Till you have an answer. Please dont tell me dont know anymore. Im really sick and tired of it le.
So I guess what people said are right. Guys who aint bad noone bothers to like. Guess Im really too naive to fall in love with someone so deeply that I had problem escaping out of it now. Maybe I should change. One who doesnt bothers much and just fool around? Nah, I know I wont be able to do that. I just wanna be strong and have a positive mind thinking after all these. I dont wanna be some weakling. And possibly. Not trusting love and falling into it so deeply. But I will still wanna believe in Fairy Tales ^^ Hoping 1 day, it will happen for me =)
Just 1 thing I forgot to mentioned in yesterday post. I treat that her answer is No simply because I understand. If you really want to be with that person, your answer will NEVER EVER be dont know. There will be a kind of anxious in answering of the answer Yes. Saying dont know already simply shows you dont feel like being with that person. Just that you didnt say it directly. Its another way round of saying No. Oh well, I wont force anything upon anyone. And seeing her friendster, can see there's already 1 guy interested in her. And yeah, she's kinda interested in him as well. Say me jealous or whatsoever. But this time round, Im not gonna care anymore. Whoever she's with, she's with. Im not gonna say anything, and Im gonna force myself from not feeling anything. Since its like we are together for so long, and she can put down the past SO easily and stead with others SO easily. Then why shall I bother about someone who can put down everything as if nothing had happened before. I once trusted she's not flirt. Yeah I still do so. But the thoughts of it started to waver. Should I even continue to trust in this? Maybe not. Since I wont bother about her anymore. And whether she's flirt or not, its up to her. Receive any harms from anyone, I wont be able to say or do anything. Its her own choice. Its her own future. You kinda force me into deciding all of these. You kept avoiding the answer by saying dont know, which I know sure its a No and you liked someone else already. Its kinda like lying to me? It hurts even more this way. And the way you treated me, I can feel it. The answer is DEFINITELY a NO. If you even bother, you would like initiate a SMS. But nothing. I always waited and waited.
After stating all of this, I have decided to MOVE on. Step out of this world which she trapped me in for so long. Back to my OLD usual self. Cheerful and not someone who go emo when seeing she's with someone else or what. Maybe if she reads all of these, she got somethings to say. What you're thinking now doesnt really help anymore. Hate me, despise me if you want. Cause in my heart, I know I still loves you. You are like a scar in my heart deep down inside. It cant be remove. Just that Im gonna try to bury all of these and move on. You can do it so easily, so can I. This will be a promise I make to myself, and Im gonna fulfill it. I dont hate you. I just hated myself. Hate myself for making myself suffer. Cant I just put everything down. And now, Im gonna do it. No matter how tough it is. Its as if im trying to step out of an addiction. And I got a favour to ask of you. I dont wanna hear a dont know from you anymore. Till you have a definite answer, please dont come and find me. To re-light the fire inside me. Giving me nothing but false hope. All these harsh words are kinda like, you bottled something up for too long, and it just burst out. Into a berzerk monster going unloose.
So now for yesterday update. Went to Bugis to find Rald and Roy. Went for praying, saw Ski in there. She was like so blur. Dont know who talked to her. Then after prayed finish, went to arcade find them, and SMS Ski that I was the one who talked to her. Lol. @ arcade, played Tekken 6 and the Otome Game. After all finished, we went for our dinner @ Red Hill. I ate Curry rice, Prata and Bobochacha. Not bad. Was bloated when finished. We then went back to Panjang. Met Jia Wei. Since Plaza got midnight sales, it was damn crowded and the atmosphere is quite good I must say. Thought can see people wearing Pyjamas shopping. LOL. Ending none. Bleh. Stayed till around 11pm then went back home.
Hmm, recently too busy to update my blog. Lets see. Hmm, nowadays, usually i reached home, it will already be around 8+ to 9. And my show starts at 9, so dont have time to even on my com. Nowadays, though no GBR relationship, I managed to forge a pretty well friendship with those whom once Im not really that "close" with. Rald is being 1 of them. Now I and him is counted rather good and close. And thats good. Manage to merge into their group. Wont felt that left out anymore. =) So both of my CCA started, Taekwondo started long ago, while D-Tech started just last week. Clocked in 1hour, play PSP in the room lol. Nothing much actually. Being going out the entire week. Being school, Bugis arcade and around SG for the project. Yesterday just went to SG Museum. Look @ the history of SG. Interesting I must say. If you got lots of spare time, go there. Its a good place to spend time. You just need 5 bucks for Student. I can garantee if you bother to listen and read EVERY single thing, you can take up to 4 hours or even more. We spend around 3 hours there yesterday, not even reading the 1/4 of the stuff in there. Yesterday I went to QueensWay to make a T-Shirt too. A Monster Hunter "clan" shirt. Roy, Rald, LJ and Kiat made theirs already. So I made mine yesterday. Suf not making since dont have his size. Heh. 25 bucks for the shirt. Then every week, I will go Bugis arcade with Roy, Rald or LJ. Usually 2 out of those 3 will go. Go there play. Vesak Day me and Roy went to pray too. And today, we are going again. Im gonna start on Tekken 6 hopefully. Then we are gonna go Red Hill for dinner. Curry Rice! Woot. Talking about curry, yesterday after QueensWay, we went to the Indian restaurant behind Fajar Sec "Karu's Curry" for our dinner. Its dman nice man their curry. But kinda EX la. But its free top up of rice and vege. Eat till you full heh. I find out that, nowadays. Me and Roy tend to eat ALOT. And we always go round SG for nice food. Heh. Think we are gonna be gourmet sooner or later. Heng we wont turn fat =X Its the revolution of Mankind. Small guys eat more than Bigger guys. =)
PS. And regarding her, hmm. Dont really have anything to say. The feeling I had here is that, she dont really bothers about me. So this already tells me her answer. And as promised. I wont go think much about her anymore. At least, I WILL try. =)
Just came back home not long from Plaza. Got a SMS from LJ just now around 4+. Asking me to go out for Monster Hunter. So i went to Ten mile to find him, Roy and Suf. And also Ailena was with them. * AHEM to Suf =x * Nah dont think so much about this. Its nothing. Then we went over to plaza, bought BubbleTea. Hmm, I told the Aunty for Honey Green Tea with Green Apple Jelly without Pearls. Ending she gave me Honeydew Green Tea instead. It taste kinda, weird? Heh. But still edible la. So long never drink my PassionFruit green tea le. Maybe tomorrow buy 1 and drink. Heh. So after buying, we went over to Suf's house. Its already around 6+ when we reached there. Continued playing, help Suf gain HR rank. But failed. Cause too many minor ones, kinda waste time. So we just helped him with those major ones. Then we stayed till around 8+ then we set out to Pasamalam buy food. Then we went over to Garden plaza eat. Hmm, Roy bought damn lot of stuff, 4 items to eat. I only bought 2. LJ 3. Then we continue play at there till around 10+ and i gained my HR to rank 3 le. ^^ Oh well anyway, Suf's parents went to Malaysia, and met a accident there. 4 cars banged together. They are alright, and thats good. So they will be returning home REAL late. They were over @ the Malaysia Police Station making police report. We wanted to stay @ Suf house longer, entertain his bro. But Suf keep asking us to go -.-" Oh well. Tomorrow we will be going to Bugis. Arcade + PSP~ Woots.
Just came back not long from my cousin's ROM. They held it @ a restaurant inviting some people to attend. Which include my family as well. Since our family are real close. Its a 8-course and due to my coughing and chest pain, cant really enjoy. These few days keep having chest pain. Left side of it. Caused me to not have a good night sleep. And plus some stress over some stuff. Make matters worse. Damn. How I hope the pain will go away soon. Its like the heart in my chest got disconnect or something. When move my body around, there's like click click sound of the bone or donno what. When I lie down or move left or right, the "thing" inside seems to follow. Must be something loosen I suppose. In the past there's already this problem. But only pain for awhile then okay le. But now it get worse, last a few days. Hope this time round, it will better faster recovered and be gone FOREVER. I dont wanna have it coming back to haunt me again. =\ Its DAMN pain im telling ya. + the another problem, causes even more heart pain. Seeing my cousin getting married, thinking to myself. Hmm, I might NEVER get married in the future. Since im a failure in relationship, friendship and overall. Im just a failure. 2012 Dec 23rd. Thats the day where they say its gonna be our world's Armageddon. How true will it be? I guess soon we will find out. Having now that the Earthquake in China took away THAT many of lives already. Soon, whatever it is, it will take away the ENTIRE population of mankind.
PS. Gotta thanks my cousin cum godsis for buying me a Adidas sling bag for my birthday. Its early 1 month I know, but they gave it to me, knowing on my birthday, I will be @ school. The last day of school that is.
And also, at least my Leg pain is kinda gone. Now chest came. Omg. Im always living in agony -.- Guess thats my life. How it will be.
Okay, to start thing off. Pain + Tired. Yes from school. And i injured my arm this time round. Damn Suf, he kick the thingy too hard, my arm actually fly backwards and kinda fracture it. Bleh. Then just now after bathing, my left arm / chest area starts to hurt again. Damn it man. The other time it hurts starting from arm, chest then the entire chest. Even when breathing lightly it HURTS. ARGH. Im seriously sick of this. Dont know what the hell is my body up to. Pain here and there. Didnt went doc. Dont ask me to. Since I already kinda gave up on life? Guess so. Pain and tired, another reason being her. Ya. I tired my best. Waited for so long. But it just doesnt seem to have any improvement. No fate? Guess so. Its not like im complaining of waiting. But seeing no progress at all, makes me feel REAL pain and tired. Its like wanted to be with someone you love ALOT and DEEPLY but it will NEVER happen. Hais. Not being EMO. I've changed. I voiced out what I feel. This is what I had become. After so much pain endurance. Finally, I cant really take it anymore. Feel like SHOUTING out LOUD man. And just die. Maybe we are seriously not fated to be together? Or she might already have fallen for someone else. If thats so, may I PLEASE ask you to once and for all say it to me. And I WILL give it up FOREVER. Putting down all the past, memories and moments. You always just said dont know or go 1 big round without exactly saying how you feel or your decision. Seriously, it kinda torture me inside. I wanna step out of this "Torture" or "Torment", be it a happy ending or a bad ending. I dont want you to chat with me and treat me good as a FRIEND. I want to be someone special in your heart. Not just a friend. But you usually msg me, Im sure you treated me just a ordinary friend ya? Since you once said, you treat everyone good. Fairytales? I dont really believe it ANYMORE. Life is just that cruel. My heart is already basically DEAD.
Saturday is coming. The wish I had will jolly well not come true. Sad, but true. I gotta face the reality somehow. Though Im REAL sad, I tired forcing the tears back in. I wanna be "hard". Always getting soft on the inside makes me lose out all the time.
Played DJ Max 2. Now felt kinda better le. Songs always sooth me down. But wrong songs turn me EMO. Haha.
This upcoming Sat, my another close cousin of mine is gonna ROM @ Jurong East Boon Lay Raja. The elder of this sis got married last year. And that period of time, i remember very clearly. Im still with her, and she's in Genting. The day which she returned. Hais. Those were the happy moments and memories. This time round, how I wish will be history repeating itself. That Im with her, while @ the restaurant. Hope this really happens. =\
These few days. Kinda no mood to do stuff. Maybe love sick struck once again? Haha. Maybe. Its been like thinking of her everyday, every moments, every minutes and seconds. Missed those days with her. How I long for her again. I can life on the outside of me that I dont miss her anymore. But its all but just a cover up for my sadness deep down in my heart. My time in my heart actually stopped at that time when we are seperated. To say the truth, I DID not move on. Unlike you, might have already done so. My time is stucked. And till when? I dont know. I just wish to step out of this and make my time moves again. No one but only you can do so. I tried my best to change. My friends around me are all changing. Some turned cheerful, some turned matured. But me? Though change outta some of the bad points. The one thing still remains the same throughout all this time, I still truly love you. Due to my blurness and dumbness, I missed the change in the past. And now, im trying hard to achieve it back what I had lost. I've waited, and will wait on. Maybe you wont read this at all. But this will just be kept a memorial for myself. The deep love i had for you left a deep scar unhealable in my heart. Asking me to move on and like someone else? Yeah sure it might happen, but when? I dont know. And I wont bother to look forward to it. Since the love I had for you was true one and a VERY deep one. Might wanna say, I can go like others. Yeah I could have. But the like will not be able to compare to the deep love I had for you. Asking me to forget about this all, its seriously impossible. By saying I will, its just a lie. To you, and to myself.
This post might sound emo, but Im not emo-ing. Just kinda sad now. Can even feel the tears coiling up around my eyes. I promised you I will change and think positive. Thats what im doing now. Awaiting for the day of being love and getting loved. Though it might not happen, still, I tried.
ITE sucks? To many it is the end. To me, its NOT. But the one thing i hated about MY ITE is, the damn air con. Okay, so today basically we had Multimedia for 4 hrs, 9am-1pm. And guess what? We are being BBQed in the room for the WHOLE of 4 hours simply being cause of the air con being down. We were like WTF. So we, 33 of us ( Not sure whether there's any absentees ) were being "cooked". Then we were only editing the photos we took about Global Warming to submit. Then when finished, all were playing DotA except me. My damn com connection got removed dont know by which dick head. Damn. So I left with no choice but my PSP. Ending I just sit there and rot. Dozing off while watching Roy and Suf who are both beside me, Im inbetween, playing DotA. Heh. Then next up, Lifeskill. And guess what? AIR CON DOWN HALFWAY AGAIN. Holy shit. This school sucks cause of the down time of air con only. Its so frequent man. Then its like 3 hours in the room? -.-" So dismissal, we were dismissed 1/2 hr earlier. Roy, Suf, LJ and Rald went Queensway to make a "clan" shirt, while making 1 for Kiat as birthday present. Then I went home alone. Board 963, found a good sit. Plug in my earphone and played my PSP~ Then when Im playing, thought which ITE sat beside me, then sat up go back 1 space to join her friend. Ending i turned back. Saw Jie Ting and Gina. -.-" Said Hi, and 1 of their friend, a guy said Hi to me too. I just heck care. Lol. Can see he's a flirt. Meh. And i despise flirt. Dont ask me why. Im like that since long ago.
Peace~
Today basically did the same thing. Lessons, Taekwondo. Lucky my leg doesnt hurt that much. Then came home. Eat noodles. Now typing this. Applied medicine for my leg le. Hope will recover fully soon =\
Now typing this blog of mine @ home. Yeah, should have release @ 5pm. Being 2-5pm is MultiMedia aka Photoshop. But our cher went to training or what. So last minute cancel the lesson. So here I am. Heh. Wanted to go Suf's house along with Roy. But headache ah. On bus play PSP, so warm + keep swing here and there. Made my head go round and round -.-" Giddy. And in game, im trying to destroy the ears of Yian Kut-Ku. Must aim one somemore. Blardy hell. Anyway, the spree of DotA in our classroom is "Hot" enough. And now, we got a new one. Tekken 5 Dark Resurrection. Everyone in my class, be it gals or guys. All seems to either love games a lot, or its simply loving computer related stuff, like animation and sort. Rocks on IT1B .\,,/ " TA TA U " Thats our class so called "trademark" with the hands sign of ROCKS ON + Saying the quote of TA TA U. Its in malay which means dont know. ^^ We created this off the team building game. And its our Battle Cry! =)
My leg injury the other time was getting better. And now, yesterday to be exact, I sort of re-injured it again -.-" Blardy hell. But at least its not as bad as the other time when it's first injured. Hoping that my leg will be fully recover by Wednesday. So i can return for my CCA perfectly. Today lessons lessons, then received sms from Iris saying she's in our school. I was like o.O then ending is most of the ITE West colleges came for a principal and motivational talk. Since my school, Dover is the HQ. There's a auditorium in there and all were ask to enter there to listen to the talk. We lesson halfway then were ask to have a small break, then go for the talk. Talk finish, our class can go home. Since we ends @ 12pm. But we, Roy, Suf, LJ and me stayed @ the cafeteria to play DJ Max then we decided to head over LJ house to update our Monster Hunter data. Then we stayed @ his house playing BIG 2 till around 5+ then we went downstair play PSP. While waiting for Jia Wei to come meet us. Then we had our dinner @ Ten Mile Magic Wok. Then now im back home.
Yesterday went to watch IronMan with Pat, Dom and JY. A not bad show. Comparing action, Transformer win though. But since its a Marvel show, its kinda good. Comparing to the Emo Spiderman and boring Superman / Batman. Best Marvel i still think its X-Men. I will rate this show a 3.5/5 ? Most of the score goes for the main lead, whose DAMN blardy funny i tell you. Its more of comedy show compare to a action packed film. So gals might like this too. Its aint too "Boyish"
Today suppose to go my class outing, they are meeting 11am @ Bukit Batok, ending im too lazy so never go LOL. Since yesterday went out already. Then later in the evening still got my CCA BBQ. I never go also XD Too lazy to move le. + My leg injured. Why the heck so many activities and events come together? When i want 1, there's none. Now im lazy + injured, all came together. Wtf man.
Yesterday Taekwondo. And yes, I injured myself again. Meh. Kicked too hard. Then think overstretched muscles or the veins. =\ Pain you know. Walking is a problem now. Blardy hell. Oh well. But still can tahan. Hope it recover soon though. If not next week dont know can go for my Taekwondo still. My mum is like asking me to give up. Cause in the past, my nephew injured himself when he's in Taekwondo too. I joined cause i wanna toughen up myself. And to prepare for NS. I dont wanna go in suffer. Yesterday we went to West Coast park to take some photos for our project. Themed " Global Warming ". So went there. It was DAMN hot im telling ya. Its as if im in the desert. Then we walk, take photo, chat and slack @ there for few hours. Under the sun, under a mini shelter with my group of classmates. Then we went back to school by cab. Took us damn long to flag 1 cab. It was so prickling hot man. As if we just came out from desert when we reached our school. Preparing for Taekwondo next -.-" Woke up this early cause i cant sleep. Then later meeting Dom and they all for movie "Iron Man". Then later Roy asked me go arcade too. But cant, since i agree to go with Dom le. Then tomorrow got a class outing, and later in the evening got Taekwondo BBQ. Omg man. So many stuff @ 1 go. And my leg injured. =\ Just so suay man. But heng Sandy havent confirm whether going for Friday BBQ anot. If she really go, then guess I might go too. Since Brandon, Suf and Fatihah all going, which are all from my class. United we stand is kinda a hidden theme for my class. Wherever we go, there's sure 1 whole group. Not scattered around. =) And thats why Im loving this class SOOOOO damn much!
Kelvin aka Shao
GPA 3.5 above
[[ The Wives ]]
kairi [kingdom hearts]
[[ The Mage Power ]]
Roy Kelvin Sufyan
[[ The Related ]]
bryan [kor]
[[ The Memories ]]
January 2005
[[ The Clock ]]
18+
1.75m / 55kg
ITE West Dover : Info Tech
<3 NEKO!
<3 <3 <3 SHANA!!!
<3 Strawberry ^^
<3 Bitter Choco =)
<3 Mint~
<3 Sad and Emo Songs [Classical / Oldies]
WoW ShadowSong : NekoShana
PSP : Metallic Blue
NDS : Metallic Pink
[[ The Wishlist ]]
To find a gal I truly love <3
To be with the gal I love
Success in everything
Gaming stuff
Able to master WoW Mage class ^^
nagato yuki [melancholy of haruhi suzumiya]
rikku [final fantasy X]
yuffie [final fantasy VII]
millia rage [guilty gear]
primula [shuffle!]
illyasviel von einzbern / ilya [fate/stay night]
natsuki [mai-hime]
shana [shakugan no shana]
fate testarossa [magical girl lyrical nanoha]
toda erika / misa [deathnote]
kari [digimon]
shiki [the world ends with you]
HER!
amanda [jie]
wenhui [jie]
daphne [jie]
edelyn [jie]
shuna [mei]
wanxin [mei]
xiuwen [mei]
xianzhen [mei]
xinyu [mei]
peixuan [mei]
kaichi [mei]
meilian [mei]
huili [mei]
maki-chan [didi]
February 2005
March 2005
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May 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
December 2006
January 2007
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Currently. My mind is filled with 1 thought. Ina cold cold snowing country, at night. Sitting near a firepit, sipping on hot choco. Omg. Thats relaxing man! Perfect leisure for me. I love the night, moon, stars and best of all SNOW! <3 this man. Wonder will it even happen for me. Hmm. =) Anyway, SG today @ my place is kinda cooling. Been raining for quite some time. And its cool~ =) Sitting infront of my com, reading forum the ENTIRE day. Yeah! And playing abit of PSP. Trying to farm Rubbery Hide for my Kirin set. =\ Meh. And now waiting for my CS meeting to start. Gal MSN me, asking who's that she is. And she said someone told her to read my blog. Heh, though im curious to find out who that person is, I wont force her on saying out. Not bad, someone actually still view my blog XD Dont know who. Secret viewer seh. LOL. Dont get me wrong. Im not saying that person is interested in my blog or what. Just woah, someone IS reading it afterall. Anyway, whoever you are, thanks for reading. And might I say, caring too? =)
So today I got no lesson as usual. Just doing some plain slacking @ home. PSPing too. Listening to Fish Leong songs for the past 1 hour, her songs are nice =) Soothing. + in this kinda weather. Its perfect! Gonna eat my sweet potatoes soon. Mum cooked them. Cold weather, piping hot sweet potatoes. Woot. Another "Xiang Shou" man! And for those who care about me. Thanks lots! I've step outta the hole already. And moving on steadily. =)
And a minor update yesterday. Went for our Video taking. We taking the story of the first founder of Singapura. Not sure the full name, but its Donno what Utama or something. We seriously made it into a comedy historic video. LMAO. Its damn funny im telling ya. If got chance, I will upload to Youtube for viewing. Now we left for editing part. We spent the entire morning AND afternoon yesterday to clear the video. Its ONLY a 4 mins video. But the time we took to film it, its like 4 HOURs and more. Really. What they said. " Tai Shang Si Fen Zong, Tai Xia Shi Nian Gong ". Or translate to, 4 mins on stage, but its 4 years of work backstage. Hope we can score well for this video, and best of all. Win the competition and win that 3k$ =)
And dont you think its contradicting? First saying you dont wanna get into relationship anymore. And the next moment you're looking for someone to love you. Yeah friends love I can understand. But you specify a certain HE. This pisses me off. This is like the second time you used the same reason towards me. And the first time, it ends up with you being with another guy soon after you said that reason to me. This time round Im sure it will leads to the same ending. Simply said, you're attention seeking. And wants ton of guys falling in love with you. But you just simply plays around as if its a game. In the past before I know you, you might be like this. But during the life span of us being together, I can feel that you changed. And now, you're back to the same old person whom I dont know. Indeed, you have changed. In the past, for me, you're really a sweet gal. And thus, fallen for you. But now, the feeling is fading off. Till the extend I dont feel anything for you anymore. And thanks for that. I appreciate it. Finally im outta this.
Sicne you're blog, friendster. Ton of GUYS are stating if noone love you, they will. Yeah. Typical answer from any guys out there. Using the same quote towards gals. I've seen too much of these already. 80% of them are basically lying. Thinking by saying those, gals who are down or sad will accept them. Heh. But 1 thing I can swear to you, Im the 20% when I said those to you in the past. Every word of it, I meant it thoroughly. Still, the memory of us being together are sweet, and I thanks you for that. The memories which will be left in me of you, would be the sweet side of you. Lets just move on from this and get a better future.
For you now, I guess it will be pretty easy to get another stead. For me, I gotta calm myself down enough first. Before even thinking of that. Cheers.
Dont know what to put as the title. So leave it there.
Some people might be wandering. Why yesterday after the clean break. Im happy instead of sad? Here its why. @ her blog. She stated she wanted "HE" to love her more and bla bla bla. And the HE she said was her "FRIEND". Yeah sure. 1 day before she was saying she cant decide whether to be with me or not. Stating she still have feeling. And she doesn't want to reject. And the next day? She seeking love from another guy. Yeah. Seriously saying. This IS FLIRT. Seriously. Its more of hatred now then love or sadness. Ever heard before, that when you love someone damn lot, you will tend to hate that person damn lot when something goes wrong. Yeah here it is. A VERY good example. So now, she say she doesnt wanna get into a relationship, and there she's seeking love from a guy. Woah. Nice one man. NICE logic and excuse. Now i dont give a damn who she likes or with. We are THOROUGHLY over. I wish her all the best. Be it good or bad. I would care less. So should I say, dont bother anymore. Let "HIM" love her in whatever way she wants. I didnt want to think this way, but seriously. Her action really proves to me one thing, she love attention from guys, and definitely. Partly a flirt. She didnt know this herself. But people out there as third party can see it.
So now, Im 100% FREE. Free from the hole. Im outta it. FULLY outta it. So now, I can find my very own happiness. Someone who treats love a matter. And not a game. Now, I just dont wanna hear anything from her anymore. Its not avoiding, mind you. In the past, I admit. She makes me miss her. But now, hate her.
2 letters. GG.
Its over. Finally.
Yeah its over. Gotta say, I felt free rather than sad. Think I just bottle it up too much. And finally, its released. This time round, I made it a clean one. =) Cheers.
I know im kinda annoying at times. But I seriously do care about others. Infact, to say the truth. Only those people whom I treated as CLOSE friends, I will be sarcastic towards. I dont know why. Its kind of my way of acting. While strangers, I will be VERY polite. Guess Im born this way to treat people this way. So friends out there, hope you guys understand. Not I wanna be rude or sarcastic to you. But its kinda of my style. Just trust me. Whenever Im like this with you, you are indeed a true close friend of mine that I treated. Dont take it too hard. =)
HBSo she decided to drop me a SMS just now. She stated to read her blog. And I did what she told. Read her blog, read her tagboard. And seriously, by reading that. Isnt it as good as telling me, dont know. I dont know why you chose to keep not deciding on an answer. Is it that hard? If you like and trust that someone, accept. If there's no longer any feelings left, reject. Let that person go. I dont like caging people up. Its like, if I dont like her anymore, I wont bother about her anymore. Let her free, let her find her own future. And not giving a "Dont know" answer. Its like you wanna reject, but just maybe like the feeling of being loved by someone so deeply. So you chose to say dont know. I know not everyone is this way. Some are just she bu de. But seriously saying la. She bu de, keep saying dont know. Does it lead to anything? The answer is NO. It will keep revolve around dont know. Ending what we have got? A dont know still. Its like going back to the start point. Deep down my heart, Im hoping for a acceptance. But I know. The dont know you're saying. Its already a NO. Not that you cant decide. Its just that you cant let it go. So I hereby will appreciate if you can decide on an answer after so long. Its been more than 3 months. Im asking and asking. Waiting and waiting. And I've been keep receiving a dont know. Im already really tired of that answer le. I want a definite answer. But you today SMS me. Telling me you aint lying. Relighting the fire within me. But ending, still gave me a dont know answer. Im really really very tired le. So, I will only say these few stuff. Decision is up to yours. Whatever it is, I just hope you give a definite answer. I know by this thing goes, the answer is definitely a No. But oh well. Getting an answer is better than not getting 1.
Do you still even have feeling in me? Have the faith and trust a couples should have? If the answer is yes, then accept. Dont bother go think about other stuff le. When together things will slowly gets better. Now whatever you think. You cant foresee the future of whats gonna happen. If the answer is No, just reject. And we both WILL move on individually. No more cross-roads between us. Since you can move on and stead with others so easily. I guess this will be the best option for you ya? This phrase is what I seriously wanted to say when I heard you got stead the other time. Its like you can forget about our memories and move on SO EASILY. Was kinda pissed off indeed. Maybe I just love you too deeply. And you did not. Thus the difference.
Till you have an answer. Please dont tell me dont know anymore. Im really sick and tired of it le.
So I guess what people said are right. Guys who aint bad noone bothers to like. Guess Im really too naive to fall in love with someone so deeply that I had problem escaping out of it now. Maybe I should change. One who doesnt bothers much and just fool around? Nah, I know I wont be able to do that. I just wanna be strong and have a positive mind thinking after all these. I dont wanna be some weakling. And possibly. Not trusting love and falling into it so deeply. But I will still wanna believe in Fairy Tales ^^ Hoping 1 day, it will happen for me =)
Just 1 thing I forgot to mentioned in yesterday post. I treat that her answer is No simply because I understand. If you really want to be with that person, your answer will NEVER EVER be dont know. There will be a kind of anxious in answering of the answer Yes. Saying dont know already simply shows you dont feel like being with that person. Just that you didnt say it directly. Its another way round of saying No. Oh well, I wont force anything upon anyone. And seeing her friendster, can see there's already 1 guy interested in her. And yeah, she's kinda interested in him as well. Say me jealous or whatsoever. But this time round, Im not gonna care anymore. Whoever she's with, she's with. Im not gonna say anything, and Im gonna force myself from not feeling anything. Since its like we are together for so long, and she can put down the past SO easily and stead with others SO easily. Then why shall I bother about someone who can put down everything as if nothing had happened before. I once trusted she's not flirt. Yeah I still do so. But the thoughts of it started to waver. Should I even continue to trust in this? Maybe not. Since I wont bother about her anymore. And whether she's flirt or not, its up to her. Receive any harms from anyone, I wont be able to say or do anything. Its her own choice. Its her own future. You kinda force me into deciding all of these. You kept avoiding the answer by saying dont know, which I know sure its a No and you liked someone else already. Its kinda like lying to me? It hurts even more this way. And the way you treated me, I can feel it. The answer is DEFINITELY a NO. If you even bother, you would like initiate a SMS. But nothing. I always waited and waited.
After stating all of this, I have decided to MOVE on. Step out of this world which she trapped me in for so long. Back to my OLD usual self. Cheerful and not someone who go emo when seeing she's with someone else or what. Maybe if she reads all of these, she got somethings to say. What you're thinking now doesnt really help anymore. Hate me, despise me if you want. Cause in my heart, I know I still loves you. You are like a scar in my heart deep down inside. It cant be remove. Just that Im gonna try to bury all of these and move on. You can do it so easily, so can I. This will be a promise I make to myself, and Im gonna fulfill it. I dont hate you. I just hated myself. Hate myself for making myself suffer. Cant I just put everything down. And now, Im gonna do it. No matter how tough it is. Its as if im trying to step out of an addiction. And I got a favour to ask of you. I dont wanna hear a dont know from you anymore. Till you have a definite answer, please dont come and find me. To re-light the fire inside me. Giving me nothing but false hope. All these harsh words are kinda like, you bottled something up for too long, and it just burst out. Into a berzerk monster going unloose.
So now for yesterday update. Went to Bugis to find Rald and Roy. Went for praying, saw Ski in there. She was like so blur. Dont know who talked to her. Then after prayed finish, went to arcade find them, and SMS Ski that I was the one who talked to her. Lol. @ arcade, played Tekken 6 and the Otome Game. After all finished, we went for our dinner @ Red Hill. I ate Curry rice, Prata and Bobochacha. Not bad. Was bloated when finished. We then went back to Panjang. Met Jia Wei. Since Plaza got midnight sales, it was damn crowded and the atmosphere is quite good I must say. Thought can see people wearing Pyjamas shopping. LOL. Ending none. Bleh. Stayed till around 11pm then went back home.
Hmm, recently too busy to update my blog. Lets see. Hmm, nowadays, usually i reached home, it will already be around 8+ to 9. And my show starts at 9, so dont have time to even on my com. Nowadays, though no GBR relationship, I managed to forge a pretty well friendship with those whom once Im not really that "close" with. Rald is being 1 of them. Now I and him is counted rather good and close. And thats good. Manage to merge into their group. Wont felt that left out anymore. =) So both of my CCA started, Taekwondo started long ago, while D-Tech started just last week. Clocked in 1hour, play PSP in the room lol. Nothing much actually. Being going out the entire week. Being school, Bugis arcade and around SG for the project. Yesterday just went to SG Museum. Look @ the history of SG. Interesting I must say. If you got lots of spare time, go there. Its a good place to spend time. You just need 5 bucks for Student. I can garantee if you bother to listen and read EVERY single thing, you can take up to 4 hours or even more. We spend around 3 hours there yesterday, not even reading the 1/4 of the stuff in there. Yesterday I went to QueensWay to make a T-Shirt too. A Monster Hunter "clan" shirt. Roy, Rald, LJ and Kiat made theirs already. So I made mine yesterday. Suf not making since dont have his size. Heh. 25 bucks for the shirt. Then every week, I will go Bugis arcade with Roy, Rald or LJ. Usually 2 out of those 3 will go. Go there play. Vesak Day me and Roy went to pray too. And today, we are going again. Im gonna start on Tekken 6 hopefully. Then we are gonna go Red Hill for dinner. Curry Rice! Woot. Talking about curry, yesterday after QueensWay, we went to the Indian restaurant behind Fajar Sec "Karu's Curry" for our dinner. Its dman nice man their curry. But kinda EX la. But its free top up of rice and vege. Eat till you full heh. I find out that, nowadays. Me and Roy tend to eat ALOT. And we always go round SG for nice food. Heh. Think we are gonna be gourmet sooner or later. Heng we wont turn fat =X Its the revolution of Mankind. Small guys eat more than Bigger guys. =)
PS. And regarding her, hmm. Dont really have anything to say. The feeling I had here is that, she dont really bothers about me. So this already tells me her answer. And as promised. I wont go think much about her anymore. At least, I WILL try. =)
Just came back home not long from Plaza. Got a SMS from LJ just now around 4+. Asking me to go out for Monster Hunter. So i went to Ten mile to find him, Roy and Suf. And also Ailena was with them. * AHEM to Suf =x * Nah dont think so much about this. Its nothing. Then we went over to plaza, bought BubbleTea. Hmm, I told the Aunty for Honey Green Tea with Green Apple Jelly without Pearls. Ending she gave me Honeydew Green Tea instead. It taste kinda, weird? Heh. But still edible la. So long never drink my PassionFruit green tea le. Maybe tomorrow buy 1 and drink. Heh. So after buying, we went over to Suf's house. Its already around 6+ when we reached there. Continued playing, help Suf gain HR rank. But failed. Cause too many minor ones, kinda waste time. So we just helped him with those major ones. Then we stayed till around 8+ then we set out to Pasamalam buy food. Then we went over to Garden plaza eat. Hmm, Roy bought damn lot of stuff, 4 items to eat. I only bought 2. LJ 3. Then we continue play at there till around 10+ and i gained my HR to rank 3 le. ^^ Oh well anyway, Suf's parents went to Malaysia, and met a accident there. 4 cars banged together. They are alright, and thats good. So they will be returning home REAL late. They were over @ the Malaysia Police Station making police report. We wanted to stay @ Suf house longer, entertain his bro. But Suf keep asking us to go -.-" Oh well. Tomorrow we will be going to Bugis. Arcade + PSP~ Woots.
Just came back not long from my cousin's ROM. They held it @ a restaurant inviting some people to attend. Which include my family as well. Since our family are real close. Its a 8-course and due to my coughing and chest pain, cant really enjoy. These few days keep having chest pain. Left side of it. Caused me to not have a good night sleep. And plus some stress over some stuff. Make matters worse. Damn. How I hope the pain will go away soon. Its like the heart in my chest got disconnect or something. When move my body around, there's like click click sound of the bone or donno what. When I lie down or move left or right, the "thing" inside seems to follow. Must be something loosen I suppose. In the past there's already this problem. But only pain for awhile then okay le. But now it get worse, last a few days. Hope this time round, it will better faster recovered and be gone FOREVER. I dont wanna have it coming back to haunt me again. =\ Its DAMN pain im telling ya. + the another problem, causes even more heart pain. Seeing my cousin getting married, thinking to myself. Hmm, I might NEVER get married in the future. Since im a failure in relationship, friendship and overall. Im just a failure. 2012 Dec 23rd. Thats the day where they say its gonna be our world's Armageddon. How true will it be? I guess soon we will find out. Having now that the Earthquake in China took away THAT many of lives already. Soon, whatever it is, it will take away the ENTIRE population of mankind.
PS. Gotta thanks my cousin cum godsis for buying me a Adidas sling bag for my birthday. Its early 1 month I know, but they gave it to me, knowing on my birthday, I will be @ school. The last day of school that is.
And also, at least my Leg pain is kinda gone. Now chest came. Omg. Im always living in agony -.- Guess thats my life. How it will be.
Okay, to start thing off. Pain + Tired. Yes from school. And i injured my arm this time round. Damn Suf, he kick the thingy too hard, my arm actually fly backwards and kinda fracture it. Bleh. Then just now after bathing, my left arm / chest area starts to hurt again. Damn it man. The other time it hurts starting from arm, chest then the entire chest. Even when breathing lightly it HURTS. ARGH. Im seriously sick of this. Dont know what the hell is my body up to. Pain here and there. Didnt went doc. Dont ask me to. Since I already kinda gave up on life? Guess so. Pain and tired, another reason being her. Ya. I tired my best. Waited for so long. But it just doesnt seem to have any improvement. No fate? Guess so. Its not like im complaining of waiting. But seeing no progress at all, makes me feel REAL pain and tired. Its like wanted to be with someone you love ALOT and DEEPLY but it will NEVER happen. Hais. Not being EMO. I've changed. I voiced out what I feel. This is what I had become. After so much pain endurance. Finally, I cant really take it anymore. Feel like SHOUTING out LOUD man. And just die. Maybe we are seriously not fated to be together? Or she might already have fallen for someone else. If thats so, may I PLEASE ask you to once and for all say it to me. And I WILL give it up FOREVER. Putting down all the past, memories and moments. You always just said dont know or go 1 big round without exactly saying how you feel or your decision. Seriously, it kinda torture me inside. I wanna step out of this "Torture" or "Torment", be it a happy ending or a bad ending. I dont want you to chat with me and treat me good as a FRIEND. I want to be someone special in your heart. Not just a friend. But you usually msg me, Im sure you treated me just a ordinary friend ya? Since you once said, you treat everyone good. Fairytales? I dont really believe it ANYMORE. Life is just that cruel. My heart is already basically DEAD.
Saturday is coming. The wish I had will jolly well not come true. Sad, but true. I gotta face the reality somehow. Though Im REAL sad, I tired forcing the tears back in. I wanna be "hard". Always getting soft on the inside makes me lose out all the time.
Played DJ Max 2. Now felt kinda better le. Songs always sooth me down. But wrong songs turn me EMO. Haha.
This upcoming Sat, my another close cousin of mine is gonna ROM @ Jurong East Boon Lay Raja. The elder of this sis got married last year. And that period of time, i remember very clearly. Im still with her, and she's in Genting. The day which she returned. Hais. Those were the happy moments and memories. This time round, how I wish will be history repeating itself. That Im with her, while @ the restaurant. Hope this really happens. =\
These few days. Kinda no mood to do stuff. Maybe love sick struck once again? Haha. Maybe. Its been like thinking of her everyday, every moments, every minutes and seconds. Missed those days with her. How I long for her again. I can life on the outside of me that I dont miss her anymore. But its all but just a cover up for my sadness deep down in my heart. My time in my heart actually stopped at that time when we are seperated. To say the truth, I DID not move on. Unlike you, might have already done so. My time is stucked. And till when? I dont know. I just wish to step out of this and make my time moves again. No one but only you can do so. I tried my best to change. My friends around me are all changing. Some turned cheerful, some turned matured. But me? Though change outta some of the bad points. The one thing still remains the same throughout all this time, I still truly love you. Due to my blurness and dumbness, I missed the change in the past. And now, im trying hard to achieve it back what I had lost. I've waited, and will wait on. Maybe you wont read this at all. But this will just be kept a memorial for myself. The deep love i had for you left a deep scar unhealable in my heart. Asking me to move on and like someone else? Yeah sure it might happen, but when? I dont know. And I wont bother to look forward to it. Since the love I had for you was true one and a VERY deep one. Might wanna say, I can go like others. Yeah I could have. But the like will not be able to compare to the deep love I had for you. Asking me to forget about this all, its seriously impossible. By saying I will, its just a lie. To you, and to myself.
This post might sound emo, but Im not emo-ing. Just kinda sad now. Can even feel the tears coiling up around my eyes. I promised you I will change and think positive. Thats what im doing now. Awaiting for the day of being love and getting loved. Though it might not happen, still, I tried.
ITE sucks? To many it is the end. To me, its NOT. But the one thing i hated about MY ITE is, the damn air con. Okay, so today basically we had Multimedia for 4 hrs, 9am-1pm. And guess what? We are being BBQed in the room for the WHOLE of 4 hours simply being cause of the air con being down. We were like WTF. So we, 33 of us ( Not sure whether there's any absentees ) were being "cooked". Then we were only editing the photos we took about Global Warming to submit. Then when finished, all were playing DotA except me. My damn com connection got removed dont know by which dick head. Damn. So I left with no choice but my PSP. Ending I just sit there and rot. Dozing off while watching Roy and Suf who are both beside me, Im inbetween, playing DotA. Heh. Then next up, Lifeskill. And guess what? AIR CON DOWN HALFWAY AGAIN. Holy shit. This school sucks cause of the down time of air con only. Its so frequent man. Then its like 3 hours in the room? -.-" So dismissal, we were dismissed 1/2 hr earlier. Roy, Suf, LJ and Rald went Queensway to make a "clan" shirt, while making 1 for Kiat as birthday present. Then I went home alone. Board 963, found a good sit. Plug in my earphone and played my PSP~ Then when Im playing, thought which ITE sat beside me, then sat up go back 1 space to join her friend. Ending i turned back. Saw Jie Ting and Gina. -.-" Said Hi, and 1 of their friend, a guy said Hi to me too. I just heck care. Lol. Can see he's a flirt. Meh. And i despise flirt. Dont ask me why. Im like that since long ago.
Peace~
Today basically did the same thing. Lessons, Taekwondo. Lucky my leg doesnt hurt that much. Then came home. Eat noodles. Now typing this. Applied medicine for my leg le. Hope will recover fully soon =\
Now typing this blog of mine @ home. Yeah, should have release @ 5pm. Being 2-5pm is MultiMedia aka Photoshop. But our cher went to training or what. So last minute cancel the lesson. So here I am. Heh. Wanted to go Suf's house along with Roy. But headache ah. On bus play PSP, so warm + keep swing here and there. Made my head go round and round -.-" Giddy. And in game, im trying to destroy the ears of Yian Kut-Ku. Must aim one somemore. Blardy hell. Anyway, the spree of DotA in our classroom is "Hot" enough. And now, we got a new one. Tekken 5 Dark Resurrection. Everyone in my class, be it gals or guys. All seems to either love games a lot, or its simply loving computer related stuff, like animation and sort. Rocks on IT1B .\,,/ " TA TA U " Thats our class so called "trademark" with the hands sign of ROCKS ON + Saying the quote of TA TA U. Its in malay which means dont know. ^^ We created this off the team building game. And its our Battle Cry! =)
My leg injury the other time was getting better. And now, yesterday to be exact, I sort of re-injured it again -.-" Blardy hell. But at least its not as bad as the other time when it's first injured. Hoping that my leg will be fully recover by Wednesday. So i can return for my CCA perfectly. Today lessons lessons, then received sms from Iris saying she's in our school. I was like o.O then ending is most of the ITE West colleges came for a principal and motivational talk. Since my school, Dover is the HQ. There's a auditorium in there and all were ask to enter there to listen to the talk. We lesson halfway then were ask to have a small break, then go for the talk. Talk finish, our class can go home. Since we ends @ 12pm. But we, Roy, Suf, LJ and me stayed @ the cafeteria to play DJ Max then we decided to head over LJ house to update our Monster Hunter data. Then we stayed @ his house playing BIG 2 till around 5+ then we went downstair play PSP. While waiting for Jia Wei to come meet us. Then we had our dinner @ Ten Mile Magic Wok. Then now im back home.
Yesterday went to watch IronMan with Pat, Dom and JY. A not bad show. Comparing action, Transformer win though. But since its a Marvel show, its kinda good. Comparing to the Emo Spiderman and boring Superman / Batman. Best Marvel i still think its X-Men. I will rate this show a 3.5/5 ? Most of the score goes for the main lead, whose DAMN blardy funny i tell you. Its more of comedy show compare to a action packed film. So gals might like this too. Its aint too "Boyish"
Today suppose to go my class outing, they are meeting 11am @ Bukit Batok, ending im too lazy so never go LOL. Since yesterday went out already. Then later in the evening still got my CCA BBQ. I never go also XD Too lazy to move le. + My leg injured. Why the heck so many activities and events come together? When i want 1, there's none. Now im lazy + injured, all came together. Wtf man.
Yesterday Taekwondo. And yes, I injured myself again. Meh. Kicked too hard. Then think overstretched muscles or the veins. =\ Pain you know. Walking is a problem now. Blardy hell. Oh well. But still can tahan. Hope it recover soon though. If not next week dont know can go for my Taekwondo still. My mum is like asking me to give up. Cause in the past, my nephew injured himself when he's in Taekwondo too. I joined cause i wanna toughen up myself. And to prepare for NS. I dont wanna go in suffer. Yesterday we went to West Coast park to take some photos for our project. Themed " Global Warming ". So went there. It was DAMN hot im telling ya. Its as if im in the desert. Then we walk, take photo, chat and slack @ there for few hours. Under the sun, under a mini shelter with my group of classmates. Then we went back to school by cab. Took us damn long to flag 1 cab. It was so prickling hot man. As if we just came out from desert when we reached our school. Preparing for Taekwondo next -.-" Woke up this early cause i cant sleep. Then later meeting Dom and they all for movie "Iron Man". Then later Roy asked me go arcade too. But cant, since i agree to go with Dom le. Then tomorrow got a class outing, and later in the evening got Taekwondo BBQ. Omg man. So many stuff @ 1 go. And my leg injured. =\ Just so suay man. But heng Sandy havent confirm whether going for Friday BBQ anot. If she really go, then guess I might go too. Since Brandon, Suf and Fatihah all going, which are all from my class. United we stand is kinda a hidden theme for my class. Wherever we go, there's sure 1 whole group. Not scattered around. =) And thats why Im loving this class SOOOOO damn much!